I first sang "I Choose You" in tears, in my car, while making a U-turn. The song was of course not properly formed. It had no structure to it, just verse chorus verse...just me realizing that my heart was wavering. I basically had a heart divided. I talked to God about pretty much everything. I had the faith for almost anything. I just didn't know that I began to become complacent about one thing...this "guy/relationship". Because I was waiting for so long I started to let compromise ease its way in. So being in a relationship with God, but cheating on Him when I felt the need to, or was it the other way around? Whoever got more attention...it didn't matter. He (God) made it quite clear that night that I had to make a choice, and I think we were arguing in the car and I said well God...you know my situation...I am trying...but I've been waiting too long. You know I have desires. You know you are my King in heaven but I live here on earth. I decided to justify my cheating or my situation based on Him not coming through, but He wasn't having that and so He told me "Choose today who You want to be with". I knew very well that I wasn't just going to hang out with my boyfriend. I knew that if I went there it would be sheets. I was making the choice to go, but His voice was so clear that I couldn't ignore it. His voice wasn't a threatening voice of "if you don't choose me then you are doomed". It was more of a voice that said "Kris, I want you, but I want you to choose me". I think that's when my heart turned and I bawled out saying..."I Choose You...I promise". So that night I sang to Him "I Choose You, You are the King of my Desire, I place You on the throne of my heart, Never again...will I stray...away...I'll stay forever and a day". I guess it was me asking Him to trust me with this vow. It was not an easy decision but I'm glad I made it. Writing that song didn't make it easier. However, It has helped me to make better choices. When temptation comes I hear that song. It's kind of like a wedding anthem. Sometimes I listen and sometimes I ignore, but I believe that he created that song as a bond-proposal between Him and me along with all of His beloveds. He just wants us to know that He loves us so much and He wants to be first and not second. So whenever I hear this song, its not so much ooh...the vow I made, I better obey. I just simply remember "wow He loves me so much, He wants to be first, He cares so much and wants nothing less". Still today in my singlehood I pray that I can return His love as I make the choice everyday to "Choose You".
Great song! The story behind it is even better. Well done :)
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